Monday, February 28, 2005

only a month's time

damn! i have to start my term paper soon! cause i only have 30 days left! 30 days of thinking, researching, reading, typing, interviewing, analyzing and to think of the solutions for my chosen company! and right now, i'm so hot and tired to start doing it! instead of bumming around the house and in front of the computer, i find myself going out with friends, making fun of each other, hang out, drink coffee, relaxing and laughing with them... darn... i have to focus really really soon...

this is my reminder for the impending responsibilities to my classmates, my family, as well as to myself..

i promise myself that i will do them starting tomorrow.. of course, after buying some needed stocks, etc. etc.

i'm so sleepy......zzzzzzzz..........

Wednesday, February 23, 2005


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Saturday, February 19, 2005

my own personal vision

it's already midterms, and my term paper for Strategic management is still not as updated as the schedule that i gave for the class. well, it's really not my fault, the company set the meeting for next week, so i have to wait then. i have a new case this coming thursday, another grilling time for our group with Sir Elfren Cruz.

my professor is i believe the best of all faculty of DLSU Graduate School of Business. i don't mean to offend anyone. the depth of his wisdom and knowledge is incomparable, and after each class, i have this feeling of being a stupid student, and to think, i'm already here at the last subject before graduation in just 2 years. i mean, i thought i knew a lot, because i love to read. but then, after each session with Sir Elfren makes me feel like a gradeschool student, experiencing the my first day in Grade 1. hahaha!

that's how good my professor is. and i guess i don't have to doubt anymore why he's already one of the great minds in the GSB, and also nominated to be on of the best faculty. and i will not doubt if ever that i find him appointed in any government posts. i feel he's the best candidate for any government position.

and how i wish i can be a 1/8 or maybe 1/16 of his mind, spirit, his whole being. then i believe i know i can do anything that i want na. hey, this can be my personal vision for myself huh?

Friday, February 18, 2005

a brand new day

i would like to start this day as a brand new day of my life. new in the sense of starting over as a girl wanting to get over the negative things in life. i would like to focus myself on the things that i have, rather than think of what i can do to get the things that are already lost to me. as much as fighting spirit that i have to overcome and get what i want in this lifetime, sometimes it's better to finally release yourself of thinking very hard.

been there, done that. now, let's move!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

my nonsense blog

my blog is a major disaster, nonsense whinning about life. and I can't seem to help not whinning about the things happening to my life. yeah, i admit that maybe the things i talked about here are presently occuping my thoughts lately, and it's unfair, coz i feel very confused and down these days. if i can bring 6months ago time, i believe i was much stronger than i am today. wahh, can somebody be much much stronger as i am now? hahahahhaa!

right now, i need to think about the good things in my life. how lucky i am to be able to live comfortably without doing much of a work. hehehe... i have to be thankful that i have the chance to really study again and enjoy myself after not doing much during my college years. yes, i have to be thankful that i know i will always have a positive outlook in life. after all my hardship, hurts, pains and sorrow, i will always come to the point of laughing all of these, laughing at myself, for the stupid things i've done! hehehee.. then move on.

yeah, i need to move on once again, to the direction of never coming back. i need to focus my mind on the things that i have to do. and from then on, i hope that i will not waver to look back.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

happy heart's day!

it's valentine's day once again, and me, i'm still alone. hey, it's really alright. i'm so used to being alone, in a lover's sense ah.. i'm never alone in this family naman. heheh

i have a lot of things to do.. a lot of research to make. a heavy load of term paper to start working on. yet, i also have a lot of questions in my mind. hmmm.. i told myself that i will concentrate on my studies from today on. the next time that i'll be thinking about foolish things will only be on weekends and maybe early April. my term paper deadline is on March 24. am i panicking? nah!! i know i can do it. i juz need to tell my mind to start doing it! hahaha!

yesterday, i realize that i'm very fortunate already. I have great family, good friends. i have a car to get me anywhere, anytime. i got cash to spare. i'm supposed to be happy right? there's one thing missing, and you know what, i'm not really finding that in other persons, because i already found him.. and stupid as this sound, yes, i'm stupid, but i'm also happy, even if it hurts me. now, if that's not stupid, i don't know what to call it anymore. hahahaha! laterz!

Friday, February 11, 2005

me, dramatic? no way!

according to my good friend, Jean, my blog is very madrama raw! hahaha! and i realize that oo nga, i was really being over dramatic what's not happening in my life. out of character ko ata being dramatic? hahahah!

ok.. i got it.. from now on, i would like to try being sarcastic instead of dramatic. mas ok na ba yun? hahaha!

thanks Jean, for reminding me that i have to be myself.. i have to get this drama disease out of my system. hehe!

over distracted!

aside from being distracted in thoughts, i find myself hooking at this Korean telenovela "stairway to heaven". damn... i'm not supposed to have other things in mind than my STRAMA paper. yet, here i am, instead of quickly doing my group's presentation later, i'm surfing for more information about the said series and the hot actor Kwon Sang Woo! damn! hahaha! this is really bad....



Wednesday, February 09, 2005

questions..

i have a lot of questions in my life... family, friends, my future.. after this almost last chapter of my Graduate school life.. i don't have an idea what is really in stored for me..

i like this song.. and i like to look at the eye of that person, and sing this song to him.. do i dare to hope that he will really really answer all those questions? who am i kidding!? hahaha!


Questions - Blaque
I wanna know why this feels so right
I wanna know why u hold me tight
Each and every night, it keeps me up all night
Thinkin' about the things i like
Can't believe your in my life
I wanna know why ur the one
The things that they should have you've already done
God sent u straight to me
You make me wanna sing
lalalalala

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these questions

Could this be my whole fantasy
Maybe u could just be too good for me
If i don't wake then I won't see
Cuz if im not the one you met, then who is in me
In the mist of the tears how come,
I love you more, and more, and more
I never longed for no one, yes its true
Seems like this questions keep me here with me

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these questions

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these questions
I
f you, really wanna be with me
Then ill say, I love you endlessly
One thing that I really wanna know
Will this end or will this grow
And now if you really be wanna be with
I'll love you endlessly
One thing that I really wanna know
Will this end or will this grow

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these questions

But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these question

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

..bad habit..

as of now, i'm raving this song.. i'm downloading the whole song itself, and i can't help but reflect what's going on with my life right now.. well, i'll admit that i have a lot of bad habits.. like talking when my mouth still have some food, driving fast and braking hard whenever i'm angry.. but then, one thing is my major bad habit, and i can't seem to help it! haha!

this song is dedicated to all strong women in the world. wanting to change the direction of their lives, yet it is easier said than done.. it can be done, the question is, do you really want it done..


Bad Habit - Destiny's Child

How many times
Are you gonna apologize about the same thing
And how many times can I take you back
When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong
(When I'm not the one that's doin' wrong, yeah)
I thought maybe if I started prayin'
That we would get better, but
When I would pray the answer would always come back to me bein' done
But we are so hard headed when we're in love
So I

I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on nowI gotta move on nowI
t's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more

I'm totally out of my element
Learnin' new ways to live, while your in a comfort zone
Not even thinkin, (you couldn't think about me) to call
And then when I get mad you buy me gifts
Thinkin' it's gonna solve every issue
From the girl callin my phone, to the pictures that I saw
And every time you would break up with me for nothing at all
I've takin all I could take
(I've takin all I could take)
But the way I live has gotta change, oh

Let me break it down
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you was just to blind to see
Past, all of the pain they was causin' you
Ladies do you feel me (do you feel me)
Have you ever loved somebody
So much that you went against the right things that you should do
Then it's time to make a change
So I

I told myself that I would make some changes
But the more I change there's one thing that remains the same
I can't seem to shake ya
You seem to really have a hold on me
And everytime that we break up
We turn around and make up
This can't go on nowI gotta move on nowI
t's not the fact that I don't love you no more
But I gotta break this bad habit
Can't take his bad habit no more

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

responsibilties, when will they all end?

i'm starting to feel very tired of doing all the things that i'm doing right now. particularly, my never ending committment to my family. i mean, it's not like i don't love my family anymore, i just needed a little space, an open breathing space from them.

in short, i just need a lot of time to be alone right now.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

la sallian values = strategy?

we have this 1 page assignment if we can use the La Sallian Values as a basis for crafting strategies in Business.. hmmm.. it's really been awhile since i last heard the Religio, Mores and Cultura - The practice of the La Sallian Values of De La Salle University. i believe it was shorter 10 years ago? hehehe

A. Religio - man's relationship with God

Value 1: Being Christian in One's Ideals
Value 2: Steadfastness in One's Relationship with God
Value 3: Presence of a Christian Community
Value 4: Being Ethical

B. Mores - man's relationship with others

Value 5: Social Awareness
Value 6: Social Equity
Value 7: Concern for the Improvement of the Quality of Life among All Socio-economic Groups
Value 8: Development of Professional Competence

C. Cultura - man's regard for material things

Value 9: Appreciation of Art and Culture
Value 10: Love of Things Filipino


whoah!! of course i don't have to copy the expanded meaning of each of the values. but by just reading them, for me, i think we can use this a basis to derive our strategies, not only in business and in life. the problem now is that how the hell am i gonna prove that they can be a basis of strategy.. wahhhh!!!