Wednesday, March 30, 2005

enrollment once again

hay... it's enrollment once again.. online enrollment that is... i just enroll in residency in order for me to still avail the use of resources of DLSU. and maybe, i'll be sitting in to STRAMA once again, in order to prepare my paper for defense a year after that..

yes, i might delay my defense because of audacious plan of going abroad for the exchange program. i don't know if i will really really able to pursue it... that's why it's audacious right? parang BHAG na sya.. hahahah! yun nga lng, i'm determined to pursue it! bleh! :p

Monday, March 28, 2005


just like the title of this post, i'm so sleepy! i think if it's not that hot and humid here, i would have slept most of the time.. instead of doing my paper.. and be awake in the evening and start filling up the necessary parts of the paper.. hayyy.. that' s all i can say for now.. coz it's almost lunch time already.

after the submission of the term paper, i will edit the template of this blog.. don't have a lot of time right now.. hehehe

Sunday, March 27, 2005

my future boyfriend... in my dreams of course.. hehehe :D Posted by Hello

risks of life

i always thought i will die in a car accident. this is because i was always on the road, and driving most of the time. yes, i will admit it, i'm a reckless driver. and whenever people commented me about this, i will add, yes, I AM A RECKLESS SAFE DRIVER. it's not like i would like to die this way, and i would like to end my life now.. i just thought of this possibility, so that i can prepare myself, and prepare the next in line to fill in my spot in case my mission in this life is fulfilled. and frankly, haven't really feel i've accomplished any mission at all, so that means i have a lot of years to do that pa.. hehehe

i love taking risks. i swerve lanes.. i out of nowhere swerve lanes. i drive fast. just today, my sister Ever called me up to say their plane already arrived in NAIA 1, and i was still in the Nagtahan area, so within 20 mins, i arrived at Caltex gas station in MIA Road cor. Domestic road. that was fast already.

with my dad already gone for almost 10 years, and with the manner on how he left us, i feel that our lives here on earth are not as long as what we seem to be. i mean, who will thought that we will have all the time and tomorrows to tell the people that we care about them? c'mon! i mean, our lives here are only borrowed moments. unfortunately i wasn't able to tell my dad that despite of all the trainings that i endured with him, i will always respect him as my father and love him for that. and with my strong personality heaving a lil way for my family to continually fight, i have to thank him for helping me strong as i am now.

the risks what we have in life are all associated with the choices that we have to make. i feel very lucky that i will always be honest with myself. before, i kinda like to hide from what i feel, what i think, and what i want.. but now, i kinda don't care anymore to hide all of it... in end, it's my happiness which is important to me, right? i love taking risks.. risks in life, risks in driving, risks in business, risks in love... risks are also associated with triumph and failure. i'm not scared to fail, i'm not scared to get hurt. isn't it life is only learned by failures? hahahaha! i know i'm a very courageous person in taking risks. changes in life are the only constant thing in this world. i just feel that we have to have the courage to give love, in order to feel love. i'm courageous with this thing, but then, i guess fate and faith always make a good laugh of me.. hahaha!

i understand that people needs more time to think about things, whether to take the risks or not.. but we don't have all our lives' time right? i mean, like in driving, do we have an hour or at least a minute to think whether we should push on the gas pedal or hit the breaks? i don't think so.. as much as i want to be patient in the risks that i made in my life, i don't have all the time to wait for that risk to prosper or fail.. i really don't know.. anybody can help me clarify this? haha!

hey, it's EAster Sunday today.. i'm supposed to be happy.. since Jesus came back to life, right? i'm sad and gloomy. my temper flared up again. and this time, let's just say i'm already pissed! hahaha! finally!

Saturday, March 26, 2005

touched by the lyrics of these songs...

i'm doing my paper right now.. and damn, it's not an easy paper to write! from the macroenvironment, down to vision mission objectives of the company.. threats, opportunities, weakenesses, strengths.. value chain! competitive advantages, strategies, 7S, 8Sit!! damn! not to mention those marketing, financial, operational, HR, and information management! langya.. wala pa ako ganu natatapos! shet... yes, i'm a crammer.. so i know i can do these din, eventually..

i'm singing, at the same time, typing.. hehehe.. so that my mind will not go stagnant, not moving.. i hate that... i'm in a mood to write... but not really like write my term paper's contents.. hahahaha!

among the songs playing in my winamp.. this caught my mind...

Do What You Have To Do

by Sarah Mclachlan

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go
a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

ok ba? applicable to me... i don't know how to let go, that's why i'm doing what i have to do.. shet this is so me... damn it! hahahahah! stupidly this is me, this is what i'm doing... and no, i'm totally aware of this... and i hate myself for being this gullible.. this foolishly stupid.

the stronger i am to tackle the challenges of my life and for my family, the stupidly i became with love, especially to a particular person who's busy with his own life...

hayy... this only mean one time, God's making me feel this way for me to stay my feet on the ground.. and i'm sure, i'll eventually overcome everything... of course, i have to eh! hehehe!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

a day of shopping

yesterday, i went to glorietta to buy my dog's bag, since i was dying to have one of those for my dog, and it does go out of stock for the longest period of time. so i bought one already for Chorale, and it's so cute!!! i mean, with her in it, she's so adorable!!! i thought it was big for her, but actually just fits her perfectly.. heheh!

it's Maundy Thursday, and i'm here at home, with my dog, my granny and manang. my bro is at my mom's house with yaya celia. it's so damn hot here and i can't concentrate on doing my paper. so i'm surfing the net, blogging and looking at the different make-ups that i can like. products from Nars, MAC, and Shu Uemura catches my fancy, boy and they are not cheap!! hahaha! i bought some yesterday, and it's bleeding my pocket na! i never thought that i will shop the way that i shopped yesterday!

but then, shopping is really a girl's remedy not to think about her lovelife. maybe that's what i just did! hahahaa!

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

lesser responsibilities

my family went to Korea yesterday... but it doesn't mean that i was left without much to do. my grandma who's supposed to be with the rest of the family in Korea wasn't able to make it, because of colds, cough, and headache.. so not burden the others in thinking for her sake, she's now here at home, resting.. i think it's better for her also, since it's freaking cold in KR..

aside from my grandma.. my brother is also left here, just like poor me! but then, he can quite take good care of himself.. i just need to check on him, and ask if he locked the doors, went to his office, need a ride home because of OT, etc.

well, my dog is here also! as of now, she's under my chair.. hahahaha.. cute and lovable pa rin! takes my mind away from distractions and focus my attention to her and to the things on hand.. so, maybe Chorale's being here in Manila is my answer to the distractions i have around me! hopefully, i'll be able to finish my term paper or at least get it going na... so that when this Saturday comes, i'll be able to get my pasalubong from them, and drive them for us to have a day of fun, before my sister, my aunt, uncle and cousin once again go back to the province. hayyy..

Monday, March 21, 2005

april 2 deadline

well well well... our march 31 deadline was extended to april 1, and a possible april 2 deadline of the paper.. this is good news.. since like for me, i haven't really really started doing anything! i'm just so not in the mood for doing it! i feel my mind is elsewhere... thinking about the exchange program to Hungary and France... and at the same time, thinking of other stuffs.. like family, friends, special someone.

this is really frustrating! i mean, i know what i should be doing, yet, i'm not doing it.. redundant na yung sinasabi ko.. wala lng... super tamad! kakainis!

my family went to Korea na.. hayyy.. i should have been there also... but then, i gave up my place to do this paper, and i haven't start doing it! wahhhh... m gonna cry!

nah... i know i can do it! or else... i'll be damn!

Monday, March 14, 2005

Lorie, Marisol, Alf and Me with one of the famous professor of DLSU-GSB, Mr. Elfren Cruz... Hmmm... dapat pa-frame to.. hahaha! Posted by Hello

headturners.. hahaha! joke lng! Girlie, Aimee, Gem and me.. :)  Posted by Hello

girl's night out at GSB night.. hahaha! Girlie, Donna, Gem and Me. Posted by Hello

may ann and me at Blue wave.. Posted by Hello

i hope it's april 1 na!

i'm so.. hmm.. i don't know... i have a lot of things in my mind.. but i know that i'm supposed to have only ONE important thing to think about.. and that's my STRAMA paper. alas, i'm so into different things lately, like thinking about future, my exchange program plans... stuffs like that makes me distracted to fully concentrate myself to the one most important thing of my MBA life... my last strama paper! wahhh..

i wonder how come that person i'm thinking about hasn't sent me any hi hello message yet? i wonder if that person's ok?

today's march 14... wahhh!!! 17 days to go for march 31... i'm so deads...

Thursday, March 10, 2005

3 weeks left

earlier, it was a month's time.. now, it's only less than 3 weeks left for the submission of the STRAMA term paper.. and this last minute, i decided to change my company instead. i feel like i was having a hard time gathering information from the company, and so decided to do my company instead. ewan.. hayyy

aside from thinking about the topic for term paper, i'm having a headache dealing with some people in the class... and also, my exchange program to Korea University deal is going bad.. school's vice dean is suggesting if i look into the exchange program to ESSCA... it has a school in Budapest, Hungary and Angers, France.... but i feel it's way over expensive for me... i have to think of something so that i can still continue with my plans of availing DLSU's exchange program.

there... that's all my whinings about the latest happenings in my life.

on the bright side, there's someone who's helping me feel better from all of these... someone making me smile, even if there's a great deal of distance between us.. i feel better because at least he does think of me, and he somewhat misses me.. and for me, that's enough for now..