Sunday, April 17, 2005

life after Strama, to live for the future

i'm kinda tamad in posting new happenings here in my blog.. currently reformatting my PC, that's why haven't check my emails, update posts here... in order to salvage my MBA files in the PC, i have to bring the CPU to my bro's place and have him help me get my files first, before reformatting.

so, the term is finally over. technically, i've completed my MBA courses already. i completed it all in 2 years time, and i also have a major in International Business. sounds good noh? hahaha!

finally, my summer vacation is just starting. can i really afford to have a real summer vacation?! hahaha! i haven't really really relax, since last thursday night because of that tiring final exam in Strategic Management. haven't quite recuperate my lack of sleep, since i've been thinking that maybe my term paper lacks the strategy that i should have thought of, or should have wrote.. maybe the strategy that i wrote at final exam was not enough in order for me to pass or even get a high grade! wahhh... im turning into a geek! hehehehe

yun nga lng, i still have a lot of things to do as the class president. i do love being in this position. i love to serve, to think for the class.. but it's also tiring ah... i feel though that this experience as a real working class president is enough for me to miss this class. hayyy.. mamimiss ko ang tension ng Strategic Management..

i'm starting my life anew.. i would like to let go of the past, and live for the future. whatever future that will be.. i don't know pa.. hehehhee.. i know i will always remember the past, but since the past will not be revive anymore, i have to let it go na rin, coz it let me go na.. labo ba? hahaha! as usual, this is me talking, and i'm very spontaneous and magulo! i'm very strong and independent.. this is the real RIA, and i can't really change the way that i am pala.. can't 100% change for the man that i loved.. so what the heck.. dba? hahahaha!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

i will post again soon

a lot had happened to me lately.. i haven't post my experience last monday night.. i'm kinda tired pa kasi... after all, it was the longest 5 hours of life.. i'm not complaining.. i'm juz whining, there's a difference! hehehehe

so i will post again soon.. coz still have a lot to do, don't have much time.. and i still have final exams for my 2 subjects next week.. ayun lng! hehehe

Monday, April 04, 2005

today is over deadline

today is the deadline of our Strategic Management paper!
that's all i can say for now, coz i need to take a bath and get back to work...
my hands are so numb!!! i'm so tired of typing and typing and typing!

i'll post my opinions later after submitting!
and tomorrow i would like to treat myself to spa... and do everything that i wasn't able to do because of doing this strama paper! wahhhhhhhh!!!

Sunday, April 03, 2005

this pic was during our Organizational Behavior class days. one year ago na ata to e.. or mag 2 years... CPK, dinner lang.. ang layo ni Lynn noh! hahaha! pero katabi ko si Bernard, Mon, Joy, Ellen, Kit and Mare.. etc. kulit namiN! hahaha! Posted by Hello

Lynn and Me (with other friends) at the busy street of Nanjing Dong Lu, Shanghai China... bigat mo Lynn e! hahaha! Posted by Hello

my friend Lynn

last night, in the wee morning of around 1230am.. (ay! it's this dawn pala! hehehe!) i called up my good friend and classmates Lynn Marcelo. well, for one, i know that she seldom sleeps early, and i have this gut feeling that she's still up. hahaha! i was not wrong! hehe! we talked up to 3am noh! that's how it always end with Lynn.. when we're about to put down the phone na, may papahabol pa kaming kwento ulit! ayun, extended! haahhaa!

Lynn and I were classmates during our Organizational Behavior class. she made a very good impression to the class for not wanting ourprof (Prof. Albert Mateo, CFO of Pfizer) to call her the first part of her name, which is Rose. she prefers to be called Lynn. but our prof was very nananadya! hahaha! he called her Rose for the entire term. in that class also, i believe i made myself known also for my singing a Chinese song, because my seatmate and forever college good friend, Bernard, told our Prof that we were classmates since undergrad and i can sing a CHinese song! wahhh.. because of that Bernard and I were separated in groupings! darn.. it's ok since we're seatmates naman. our bond is very deep up to now, since classmates nga kami since college, and i love driving him home! and his mom isvery nice. i also know his siblings and can't forget his younger brother Ferdinand. haha! but this blog is not about Bernard yet... i will write about him next time, for now, this is about Lynn.

fast forward to last term, wherein i again have Lynn as my classmates. we were not like uber-close, since she got her circle of friends already, as we all have. and she's way ahead of me, but having her a classmate is very refreshing. good thing we were both demanded to be class officers! Lynn as my vice-president, and we have this out of country outing, and the success of this lies in the good hands of the officers. over pressure noh? hahahaha!

with a long of talking on the phone, about the plans to go to Shanghai,China, travel agency, travel decisions, planning, scheduling, etc etc. grabe! it was really hard! considering there are 38 of us going. 38 individuals with different views, opinions, reactions, etc. but then, the important thing in that trip were the 2 of us. because it's the 2 of us who are doing the planning, and the succes was in our hands only.

Lynn handled the internal side, scheduling, the itinerary for the class, etc. i handled the external part, the travel agency, the booking, the bus, etc. but all my decisions were also concurred by Lynn. this goes the same way with her also. we both decided on everything. and after the trip, it really was a relief because it was a success, (well that's the way i see it) we both believe we've done our part already. yun nga lng, wala kami na shopping sa Shanghai! huhuhuh!

i love talking to Lynn. i love whining to Lynn. hahaha! seriously! i mean, it's because she's very honest with me. like if i did something not really good, she will say.. uhmm.. dapat ganito ata.. hahaha! i like the way she will lecture me! kasi parang ndi lecture.. hehehe! and will advice me for the things to come! tuwa lng ako kasi there are some friends who are there, yet not really accept for who you are, what you are really, and here, i found someone who's willing to accept me and my opinions, though not really correct all the time, yet, she never questions and doubts my true intention of being good to others. ewan.. ang labo na ata neto a.. hehehe!

now that our learning journey is about to end, she's defending her paper na, so after that, she can graduate na, and she will go find her luck and happiness, wherever that will be. i crossing my fingers now that she will able to find the additional time and pursue international studies as what i will be doing to my grad school career.. ending it with a bang! and if that's the case, then i know the two of us don't have anything to fear anymore in a foreign country, coz i believe that we both can do more solidly there together. hahaha! sa food, shopping, mga trip naming gawin. hahaha! i can't wait.. but i will still accept whatever her decision will be.

in the short span of time of being friends together, i know in my heart i found a good person, with a good heart and a good soul. and i want her to know that the time will come that we can to go separate ways, but i firmly believe that we will be able to cross our paths again. who knows, sa europe, sa states, asia, wherever! wag lng sana sa africa ha? mainit sobra duN! hahaha!

thank you Lynn, for the wonderful gift of friendship :) you're a hall of fame in my book! hahahaha!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

it's already april!

time flies so fast... it's already april! the term is ending soon... and after 2 years here in DLSU- Graduate School of Business, i like to ask myself, am i ready to start my life na?

at age 27, i don't feel my age at all! honest! i'm not saying this because this is what every girl in this world would say to feel good about themselves... i'm saying this, because this is really what i feel. my energy is still like i was still in college. and i'm treating this 2nd chance of learning as my undergrad degree, never enjoyed college kasi e... yes, i know i have to blame myself for that.

i'm enjoying MBA that i don't want this to end. yes, i know i have a very easy and laid back way of living now, and yes, i know i have to start working my ass soon since my continuing education is about to end.. but that's the choice, if i want it to end next term? or add something to this last chance of learning?

i'm still writing my term paper now.. we got lucky and had our due date extended for the 2nd time to this coming monday. i'm so stressed and pressured about this Strategic Management class that i kinda forgot to enjoy my life while taking up Strama... i mean, it's been awhile since i last look up and admire the blue skies, the twinkling stars... it's really been awhile since i last went to a party, meet people, meet guys.. hahaha!

since the due date of this paper is nearing, after this, maybe go to the spa.. hang out with friends.. eat out and shopping with my family. i know i have to make up for the lost time that i had with them and with myself.. then, i have to study again for the final exam of this Strategic Management! wahhh.. walang katapusan na Strama!!!!

but i love this subject! who's complaining? hahahaha! i'm not complaining! just happy to have taken up this subject, serve as the President of this class.. i love Strama, 'coz i believe this subject will help me in becoming a good person, a good leader, a good president or CEO of whatever my future will be.. hahaha! grabeng confident sa sarili! i'm just kidding kaya! :)

it's april already!

time really flies fast... it's already april na! too fast to look at the stars at night... to smell the flowers... to smile and meet people... to think about the future.. and now, 8 months to go, Christmas nanaman! grabe!

got another extension for the term paper.. i'm doing it again now, i'll be doing this again tomorrow, and whole day sunday.. as well as morning and afternoon of monday. this is how much i love this paper... really? hahaha! no.. i'm kidding.. i just work best cramming for the time, pressures.. etc.

i missed so many things already! i miss enjoying my life!! hayy.. when was the last time i went to the mall? ahh.. the time my sister was still here in manila.. one week palng pala e! pero i feel i'm so ewan... 2 days lng ako ndi lumabas ng house, the price of gasoline is now 30pesos per liter! hayyy!! what's happening to this country!?!?!

Friday, April 01, 2005

song by Lifehouse

i came across this song by the group Lifehouse.. the interpretation of the song by the writer is as follows:

Somewhere in Between: Before my girlfriend and I got together, she had broken up with this guy. I'd been head-over-heels for her for years even though she was dating him. So they broke up, and I was like, "Man, if I don't make a move now, I may never get a chance." I was always friends with her but never really could get a step further. So I started taking her out to dinners and stuff. She was a little bit on the rebound, but I think she had some feelings for me. We were at that point where we weren't sure if we were dating or not, or even if she really liked me in that way. It was a very vulnerable time for me and that's when I wrote "Somewhere In Between." I poured all those feelings into the song. Then I played it for her and that was it, we were together.

ganda noh? hahaha! shucks, parang the scene is very familiar to me... the lyrics goes like this..

I can't be losing sleepover this,
no I can'tand now
I cannot stop pacing
give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
if my mind would just stop racing
cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening

this is over my head
but underneath my feet
cause by tomorrow morning
I'll have this thing beat
and everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream

would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
don't be surprised if I collapse
down at your feet again
I don't want to run away from this
I know that I just don't need this

cause I cannot stand still
I can't be this unsturdy
this cannot be happening, yeah
cause I'm waiting for tonight
and then waiting for tomorrow
and I'm somewhere in between
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream
what is real and just a dream

----> yeah.. this song was meant for me.. and for the person i'd lost.. reflecting nanman ako, and to think it's not Good friday anymore.. hahahha! whatever!!!